Okay, freaks. In a concerted effort to be more “mindful” (AKA “the best version of me”), I’ve taken up meditation. Believe it or not, the first time I heard about meditation was through shock jock Howard Stern. I’ve been an avid Stern listener since my college days and he’s touched on the subject many times because his mom was a firm believer in transcendental meditation and he started the practice at age 18.
Anyhoo, several friends in my inner circle of trust practice mediation so it was only a matter of time I try it, too. Well, that day came 5 days ago when I decided to download the Calm app (I read about the free app in Cosmo of all places!). I stumbled upon the article at the nail salon of all places. Look for the signs from the Universe, people! They’re everywhere! Maybe even in the latest issue of Cosmo for chrissakes!
So what possessed me to try meditating?
Like most humans, I struggle with being present. My mine wanders all the time. I catch myself obsessing about the past and future. I struggle with anxiety. I’m self-diagnosed ADD. I’m waaaaay too hard on myself. My thoughts get the best of me. Let’s just say, I was ready to make the present moment count.
But how would I learn the practice? I’m not into taking meditation classes and reading books on the subject (they bore me to no end and the language is somewhat hokey in my humble opinion) so when I serendipitously read about a free app, I was like, “Okay, I can try this.”
The Calm app (this is NOT an ad, by the way), is meditation made simple. The soothing voice a woman/teacher played over the Zen-sational sounds of ocean breezes and crashing waves is oddly addictive.
I’m 5 days deep now and I can honestly say I feel more present. When my brain starts focusing on bad stuff, I’m learning to return to my breath. I’m taking deep breaths before I react to my children. I’m taking looooong inhales the moment I start to obsess over something as menial as cooking dinner. I’m learning to consciously shut off the constant chatter in my head.
And you know what? I’m making the present moment count. Why? Because it’s the only one that matters.