You Know You Want This Tee

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{Feel the Piece by Tyler Jacobs Cray tee similar here, 7 for all Mankind boyfriend jeans available here, Isabel Marant Bekket sneakers available here, Balenciaga motorcycle bag similar here, Ray-Ban sunnies}

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{The purple hair extension is back. As are the cysts on my chin.}

The burning desire to go to Ultra in a full-on COSTUME. The need to drive at top speeds when alone (and score not one, but TWO speeding tickets in the last month alone). The purple hair extension is back because I felt I lacked “edge.” I reserved a miniature labradoodle pup and named her Madonna (for now until the husband craps on that BRILLIANT idea, too). My body is sagging in unfathomable places. My mood changes 325 times a day. Did I mention I’m considering a solo trip to INDIA?

Clearly, I’m having a quarter-life crisis of epic proportions. Which I hear is quite common for 36-year-old (even happily) married women with kids.

Without sounding like a whiny little betch (because they are the worst kind of humans),  sometimes I feel, well, overwhelmed and majorly stressed out over the littlest things.  I oftentimes find myself taking on too many projects, which invariably cause me to not enjoy the moment and my free time when the kids are away at school. Lately, I feel like my best isn’t good enough. I feel guilty. I feel like I’m drowning in a sea of deadlines and messy drawers and cluttered closets. Not all the time, but often enough to warrant a post on my present melodramatic psyche.

In other words, I’m merrily CRAY. As in, don’t call the psycho ward just yet. I’m just in tune with my sentiments and being honest with you freaks. So this tee from Singer22 suits me well right about now.

But I’m okay with it.

In an effort to reel in this out-of-control sentiment, I’m saying NO to projects I don’t love. I’m creating to-do lists. I’m manifesting calmness. I’m cooking one new dish a week. I’m meditating with Massi more. I’m putting away the iPhone when the kids are home. I picked up my journal after a two-year hiatus and seeing where my stream-of-consciousness entries take me.

Do you ever feel cray? Or am I alone? Um, please tell me I’m not alone…

 

 

 

 

 

 

15 Comments

  1. March 25, 2013 / 12:10 pm

    Applause. I am cray, too. Love this post and awesome outfit! xoxo

  2. Wordy Girl
    March 25, 2013 / 12:45 pm

    Thanks, Aurora!

  3. March 25, 2013 / 1:23 pm

    I wanna be cray just like you ;)!!!

    Kick-Aww t-shirt!

    Ana

  4. March 25, 2013 / 1:24 pm

    *ass (blame it on autocorrect!)

  5. Wordy Girl
    March 25, 2013 / 1:58 pm

    Ana, it is fab!

  6. Lizzie
    March 25, 2013 / 2:04 pm

    Wow, you really shared some private thoughts and feelings in today’s post. That takes some major guts! Most people don’t have the nerve to do that with just themselves (themself?). Kudos to you!!!
    PS-Love the shirt!!!

  7. Wordy Girl
    March 25, 2013 / 2:16 pm

    Lizzie, thanks for the pat on the back. I needed it:)

  8. March 25, 2013 / 4:13 pm

    ahh, boy do I get it! I am sitting a bit father down the road (55 today, thank you very much!) and have realized that the craziness is always, more or less, there. In one form or another. To quote “When Things Fall Apart” by Pema Chodron…

    “We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things dont really ever get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together and fall apart again. Its just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all this to happen: room for grief, relief, misery and joy.”

    Your strength comes from your beautiful honesty. You sound like you are on the right track. Keep inspiring!

  9. Wordy Girl
    March 25, 2013 / 7:11 pm

    That is lovely, Starr. And Happy Birthday!

  10. March 26, 2013 / 7:50 am

    You really make it seem so easy with your presentation but I find this topic
    to be actually something which I think I would
    never understand. It sort of feels too complex
    and extremely wide for me. I am looking forward for your subsequent
    publish, I will attempt to get the dangle of it!

  11. melisa chantres
    March 26, 2013 / 10:24 am

    You are not alone and thank you! This was so honest and real…prayer is usually what gets me through it all. Big hugs from another cray!

  12. Massiel Miranda
    March 26, 2013 / 5:23 pm

    I love the outfit!!!
    Um, you are not alone.
    Feel all of it!!!!
    Inhale deeply and exhale completely.

  13. Marisa Scime
    March 28, 2013 / 11:59 am

    You are adorable. And if you are seriously planning a trip to india, please let me know. It is one of my favorite places on earth and I would love to help you plan an incredible experience there. xo

  14. March 29, 2013 / 6:32 pm

    Definitely not alone 😉
    XOXO

  15. April 2, 2013 / 1:40 pm

    I TOTALLY LOVE your honesty and I a feel EXACTLY the same.. I am currently in the same place!! even cooking one new dish a week lol

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